IM NOT GOING NAKED!!! * Costco run, chit chat and talking about subscribers!!
Jan 9, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjtZEnbzY-M

I'm not gonna run naked down the road or
do any skipping with no shirt on
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good morning welcome to what are we on
Tuesday god I'm this week is already
just like Shh Monday down Tuesday
priority 2 o'clock tells us where my
days already been thanks this um we are
going to drop a car off really quick at
always lunch and then we are going to go
to Costco so figure lettuce all GU
because well we're on e let's hope how
do I make it anyways I hope you guys
have a wonderful day why don't you stay
here actually dad it's cool me with a
touch of rain not bad I found this
Nicola I forgot I had bought this like
well huh no Mayas at school honey I
forgot that I have this eight we're
gonna get him after a little bit okay I
forgot that I had this one hanging up
with all my necklaces but it was put
behind so it kind of was hiding and I
was like oh my gosh I feel my necklace I
have been looking for it but I realize I
stuck behind my other ones that are
longer so this little poor thing hid
anyways normally I don't do long chains
are short chains sorry so this is kind
of considered short but I hope it looks
okay with my outfit whoo my husband he
loves the heat up let's just say that
anyways so I wanted to say an official
thank you Pam talks for your wonderful
review on my channel you are so sweet
and I appreciate the kind words that you
spoke and you know I I just I really I
love that you know my channel touches
people the way that I have wanted it to
and you know like I had commented back
to you you know when I very first
started youtube I really didn't know
where my journey was at I didn't there
was no journey there was no like real
future in a sense and as time went on
and I got way like wake me the fire for
a change in my life I knew that this
would be an amazing platform to not only
share my journey but also be able to
inspire and help others that might not
feel like they're adequate to fight this
journey as well and do it all together
rather than doing it alone because when
you do it alone it's so much harder I
think now when I say that it's because
you know you have your days that you are
or feel like you're just you know just
struck down you know and to have that
support of uplifting and the
encouragement it makes a million times
difference when it comes to having that
friendship with others you know and be
able to say you know what I'm not doing
this alone when I'm having a bad day I
know there are others that are also
having a bad day so I'm not alone
and so it makes it feel good to know
that my YouTube channel that I started
out not knowing what it was even going
to be about has inspired and has touched
so many people that honestly it has
really made a big big difference so I
thank you so much for being honest and
sharing you know your true feelings
about my channel and I'm just so
grateful that you do okay so I just want
to say it thank you you know that makes
me feel so good and so honored to have
somebody talk so highly of me there are
days that I don't feel like I'm even
making a dent in people's lives because
I'm going through my own struggles that
sometimes I get caught up and not and I
I sometimes feel like you know it's just
me I feel like sometimes I don't in my
brain the storytelling that I make is
people are listening to me and they're
saying oh she's a complainer and she's
this and she's that and it's like I
don't want to be that person I I don't
live my life like God you know I what
you see is what I am you know
but I do have my day I do have my
moments where it's just like you know
I'm human and what I'm doing is exactly
what I want to be doing but like you
said I'm a mom I'm a wife I'm a person
I'm a friend and I just want to bless
people with my channel and make them
feel when they come to see our family
that you guys leave my channel feeling
inspired because that's my journey in
life is to be an inspiration for others
because I know in life like it look at
the ambulance do you see the ambulance
they're picking up the sick person yeah
they're probably taking them to the
hospital yeah they gotta go to the
hospital go get medicine
but you know there are times in my life
that I needed somebody to be an
inspiration to me and to share their
struggles with me so that I didn't feel
alone and that I didn't feel like I was
fighting this journey alone but I didn't
have that and so a lot of times I fell
off the bandwagon because I would just
eventually turn back to my addiction of
food because I didn't know what else to
do but knowing that I have this
opportunity to not only be something
that I needed in the past and that I
need today but to also be able to bounce
myself off of others
so I'm receiving as well it's such a
healthy healthy thing for everybody so
Pam thank you so much
I truly appreciate it I am going to
thank my husband he just ran through a
yellow light and left me in the dust and
I just want to say thank you to all of
the new subscribers and welcome I am so
excited and so thankful and my heart is
just bubbling with joy see my numbers
going up because it just means that this
channel is growing with such amazing
individuals I appreciate everybody that
is joining and clicking that subscribe
button it's just helping me to get out
there to more people and to follow and
make my dreams come true and that is to
be you know that that person that can
speak volumes to somebody that might not
feel like they're out of what to make it
through life sometimes you know and I've
been through a lot and I still am going
through so much but I want to be that
friend that some people need and if that
means that my channels continuing to
grow so that can happen I thank you so
much between the bottom of my heart I
appreciate it so much
yesterday I did a great walk like I was
telling you guys I got like I wanna say
I was like either 35 or 40 minutes I
didn't time it I was going to and then I
was like I got caught off guard and then
I started talking to you guys and then I
ended up running into the Mel lady and
so we started talk to you for a few
minutes but all in all all together I
will say that I walked close to 35 to 40
minutes cutting out the stopping moment
for a second to say hi to I'm no lady
but it was a nice walk it was cold and I
was really out of breath no honey you
have to be in your car see honey you
have to be safe
Oh about the breathing I felt like I
could not catch my breath you guys and
it wasn't because of out of breath
doesn't I haven't been moving because I
have been moving but the air was so cold
that when it was going in I felt like I
wasn't even breathing if that makes any
sense I don't know if that's a normal
thing that happens to people but Maya
Maya felt like the air was so thin and
crisp that it actually when it was going
tonight I couldn't I didn't feel like I
could get that air in and so I was
watching that back you left this night
when I heard this morning when I was
editing and I'm like oh my god people
are gonna think that I was like
literally gonna probably drop over dead
because I couldn't breathe no it wasn't
seriously I think cuz of the air because
it was but I'm hoping I don't know if
it's gonna rain this afternoon or not
but we are going to Costco so I am gonna
do some walking and Tosca which its
leisure walking but you know it's still
walking I'm still moving and I'm caught
in my house doing something we're gonna
let the kids walk so they get some
exercise and have some run time and have
fun time I mean not really run time was
over in the store but you know they've
been liking to show us that they have
been able to control themselves - now I
have to go in a car all the time once in
a while if it's a busy time of the day
we'll put them in the carts just because
boomer keeps up really well but yes
you're on the other hand oh my gosh
there's like no keeping up with her she
if you talk about somebody's eye stops
uh suppose every Rose on the side of the
corner of the street that is her I am
not joking she is the most irritable
child to take shopping because she stops
and looks I'm just like girl put a
engine behind you and go oh she's so
funny but yeah she is nothing like we
are her dad like me and all we we get in
we get out what's it about
I'll walk around but more than not
you're gonna catch us going in and
coming straight back out oh no not this
child
I told Olli I said honey she's at age oh
she'll be by herself she's gonna go by
herself and I'll send her with my
shopping list she can have all the time
in the world to go shopping oh my gosh
like if they want to be in the car we'll
stick them in there we have our cover I
always put a car cover in we've done
that since the day they started sitting
in the car seat are those the car I
didn't put them
I didn't start putting them in the car
until there are about nine months old
because I like to make sure that their
spine was you know strong enough to hold
themselves I don't like putting babies
in areas where you have to like put
blankets in stuff to hold them up
because to me then that's telling me
that their backs are straight you know
straight in are like strong enough to
hold themselves
so I didn't start setting my babies up
until about nine months like letting
them sit in a cart they would put them
in the stroller and you know that was
fine because we can tilt it back a
little bit and that was all good
but anyways we we ended up putting them
in the car at nine months old and but we
have from the day that we've done that
we put them in a shopping cart cover so
that if they were to go and like start
on something they aren't on the bar
where everybody's hands have been and so
just it's been a habit that wouldn't we
put them in the car we just take the car
cover with us and stick them in so that
our you know it's like more sanitary and
especially because I don't know about it
like everywhere but I know here in
salem's I can't put mouth disease it is
going around really bad and it just
terrifies me that my kids will get it
they've never had it knock on some
plastic somewhere I guess have not had
it but I've heard it's very very very
painful and I really don't need them to
have stuff like that that is why I use
the shopping cart cover and we have like
I said since they started to ever sit in
the car seat so are the stroller cart
whatever it's called anyways so if they
decide to walk try and walk her you see
what I'm talking about because this
child just she goes in her own little
shopping world when she is in the store
she doesn't touch anything she just
she's very nosy she's like me it was
much like that - I would be very
observant of everything around me and I
was just totally be in another world
just being nosy and looking at
everything and looking at everybody and
that's exactly how she is so I guess I
can't complain too much although now is
I'm a mom I hadn't totally opposite now
looks like I don't even notice things
like that my kids notice
he did something nervous and stores like
he's just one of those I was like let's
get him let's get out and that's why I
hate taking him to show me in stores
with me because he like yo like get to
the point where he's like let's just go
let's just go and I'm like oh my gosh
I've got to get the stuff for my flight
I gotta get everything on my list and he
will like stressed me out so finally I'm
like this is why I remember not taking
you with me places he's just like oh
stop it now before he used to do all the
shopping because I couldn't go to the
stores and now I I do most of the
shopping what's involved he's out and he
calls me as like hey or something I
might be like you know what just go
ahead and do it because I really don't
really take the kids or I don't like
going or it's gonna be too dark and late
by the time you get home then he'll just
stopped off at the store and do it for
me but nine out of ten I do all the
shopping now which is really nice I do
like that one thing Pam you were talking
about is that you would love to see me
cook some mills girl you want to see
macaroni and cheese be both be made or
Hamburger Helper I'm on it
I dunno
I was never really seriously taught how
to cook and I'm not I don't have that
niche where some people they can go into
a kitchen and they can stand there and
put a whole meal together with not
having like a recipe book or anything
they can just add things and it just
tastes so amazing you're just like how
did you know to put those things
together does it taste so good
yeah that ain't me I will be putting
everything in there that totally would
make a meal taste really bad so I had to
laugh when I heard that and Holly laughs
to me it was like well if you cook her
dinner she's covered what'd he say if
you cook dinner she's coming to eat with
you it's my husband oh he laughed so
hard because yeah my family does not
like my cooking so it's a when mama
cooks it's a momma's evening and the
kids are like out of there so on that
note maybe I can do a learning how to
cook video but to go in like really cook
a meal is totally like off limits with
me except probably burn the kitchen down
not joking whatsoever but we always get
home-cooked meals because Hina Holly was
taught how to cook his mom talking about
a ton and like they're all like all the
siblings in his family they all know how
to come really good food just like he
does and when his mom was here for the
six I was here it was like eating at a
restaurant every single night she made
something different every single night
was always so healthy I actually lost so
much weight when she was here too
because you know even if she fried food
for like a lady she always would bake my
food she never would fry and she never
asked me do you want me to fry it
she just baked it to make it healthy for
me and she was she's an amazing cook an
amazing cook so Ali and his family they
are very good cooks but for me
I was always taught like how to cook out
of boxes that was pretty much my my
thing is really
sorry turn around in this place but for
me yes honey we're gonna get daddy but
for me to cook is a joke it was always
like hamburger helpers I do know how to
make like enchiladas but you didn't like
my enchiladas they're not traditional
enchiladas like I I know how to wrap
them in stuff but my enchiladas are like
a casserole kind which I will say my
family does really like that so anyways
that is sad about the food and then you
also mentioned about talking about like
how I met Olly and stuff I do want to do
like a almost like a Q&A I get to know
me get to know my family get to know
about only in his life so if you guys
want to start submitting questions then
I will start writing them down I said
this a long time ago but I really didn't
get any I didn't really get any true
questions so I didn't fulfill that
message I mean not the message I didn't
fulfill the Q&A at that time but feel
free to start submitting questions and
then we will do a Q&A together but I
also am going to be putting together
like I was saying before I get to know
me better video and there I will talk
more about like my life again and share
a little bit more information so just
because you know I know that there has
been a lot of new subscribers and I know
everybody's really itching to know more
about me and my family and I'm so
excited to share with you guys
everything about us so definitely we are
working on those
so yeah have any of you guys ever bought
furniture through Costco just curious
they oh this table it's $6.99 I'm in
love with it and I want it really bad
I told all the guys I was table fight
we've only ever gone our stuff through
yeah Ashlee's so I don't know but I want
to definitely get a new dining room
table
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and they have that table too I like that
one the tape well that you I do like it
that one's a thousand whoa because it
probably no it does it has the
additional space that pulls apart do you
guys see what I put up with at the
stores okay we are finally getting done
we have a lot of stuff and you know I
noticed like because I've been doing a
lot of price checking and there is a lot
of stuff here that I didn't realize it's
actually cheaper to get it here than
somewhere else even though you're gonna
get it in big quantities but even being
able to put some of it in a freezer and
have it to fall back on good idea good
idea
so anyways I've got a few things that
I'm gonna trying to for the kids first
day the cars sit down please sit down
some are sick no okay I need you to sit
I don't want you to pull its roof Omar
okay so jump thank you
sits down okay sit down
anyways I got my quintanilla bars cuz
I'm gonna try and do that with the kids
in the car versus having them always
eating my chips and crap like that and
then I also got its a 40 pack the juice
box of a heart percent organic so I'm
gonna certainly not because otherwise
they're wanting all this other stuff and
I'm not I'm just tired of like buying
stuff and then half the times they need
a filling it on the floor that's like a
waste of my money so I'm just like no
more not doing this so yeah I mean I got
my veggie straws you know that good
stuff and now I'm waiting for my husband
he ran to go get corn tortillas for
dinner tonight and he's not vote anyways
okay I'm gonna load this up we are
finally out of Costco holy cow you guys
so I went up and I went to go and put
all of our bursaries up there right well
only ran back really quick to go and get
the corn tortillas well my husband
couldn't find the corn tortillas the
workers were not being very helpful and
I end up standing there holding up the
line for like five people behind me I
had to load everything back up into the
car just to go and find him oh my gosh
it was like a big old fiasco but anyways
we are finally out he's getting a drink
really quick and then we're gonna head
home
I think I'm gonna probably work on my
mom's birthday shirt so I'll show you
guys what it turns out to be like if I
don't blog but yeah and I was gonna walk
but it's rainy and so we're not gonna
walk today I just don't want to get sick
I could see you taking out okay I am
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finally settling down we just had dinner
I am like stopped literally stuffed I
had a really good good dinner all he
made well he made Philly cheesesteak
sandwiches but I just took the Philly
cheesesteak and - the cheese and put
that on a bed of lettuce was so good
when I'm so full we had a really good
day it was it was I feel like we
accomplished a lot we went to Costco and
I was able to find some really good
healthy snacks for the kids because for
me I feel like lately the kids have just
been eating a lot of just junk and I'm
just so tired of it and I am just like
no you know what if I'm promoting
healthy eating for myself why am I not
promoting all for them and I don't I'm
not saying like they can't have mmm
cookies here and there or you know a
treat or something but like for me I
always went before I started my journey
I always had this thing that when I
would get in the car I had to have a
snack I don't care if I was hungry
if it was I don't know really what it
was it was just like a mental thing that
I seriously would like get in the car
and I'd be like 10 15 minutes into the
car right I'd be like I got a IR oli I
we got to stop somewhere we got to get
me some food I'm hungry yada yada yada
and that was seriously like something I
dealt with and you know he would stop
because I said I wanted to stop and he
never like argued with that or you know
made me feel bad or anything in that
manner and he you know we would
stop I didn't matter usually nine out of
ten it was Taco Bell my go-to was Taco
Bell I mean and there was a few times
they even had him stop at like Pizza Hut
and I would get the mini pizzas or the
individual pizzas I I don't know what
they're called but like a small pizza
not a small it's smaller than a small
but I'd have him order me two of those
and I would eat them my soul just got in
a medium and eat the whole pizza myself
and that's kind of where my journey was
coming to a head like that's where I was
starting to get to the point where I was
so sore I wasn't being able to move very
much I wasn't being able to like get out
of my chair very often walking from my
chair to the bathroom I was getting so
out of breath like literally I would be
so out of breath that I could by the
time I went to the bathroom to my earth
from my chair to my bathroom and then
from my bathroom to my chair I I swear I
would sit on the edge of my chair after
that and I'd be like trying to catch my
breath and I'm just like oh my gosh that
is ridiculous like you're getting to the
point you can't even hardly walk to the
bathroom but I would still come down and
sit on my chair and start eating again
like it was always a constant thing of
food food food food food so that's one
thing when I started this journey that I
really broke and I really kept reminding
myself
you have control to eat when you really
want to it doesn't mean just because
we're in the car that you have to eat
right now because you you can get home
and say you want to eat 20 minutes after
you guys get home you can get in the car
and go and get food it's not you know
you're not stopped from doing that and
so it took me a while but I did
successfully be able to come to that
point where I wasn't feeling like I had
to eat all the time
when I was in a car so now there's days
where I can eat breakfast at like 8
o'clock in the morning and then I won't
sometimes have a chance to eat lunch and
I'll be in the car cuz we're on a road
you know like a run or something and
I'll be like oh my gosh I'm getting
really hungry well instead of let's stop
and get something to eat or grabbing a
snack that you know is a fast track
snack if that me you know like going to
just say gas station and grabbing you
know some nuts or something instead of
fast tracking it have myself prepared so
when I was at Costco I got a box of
skinny pop popcorn they're individual
bags you get 28 of them there are a
hundred calories per bag and they're
like good size actually I was really
shocked and hmm those will be amazing to
leave in the car so if I have that day
where I'm just like okay you know I need
a little snack to get me until I have
time to go home and eat or until I can
get to dinner at least I'm eating
something that I know is only a hundred
calories it's individually already
measured out and put away because I used
to buy the big bags and Olli actually
you know and again this is another thing
I noticed that I have changed is Olli
before I started my journey had he held
up the box of the individual bags of
popcorn and said do you think this would
be a better option I would have gotten
mad and I would have flipped a dime and
been like no I need the big bag that I
can put my my portions in baggies which
my how I would break up the big bag so
that they didn't dry out is I put him in
the big leader you know trash bags
Ziploc bags
well I found myself like in the evening
time you know if I wanted a little snack
while I was watching TV or something
sometimes I'd get so involved in my TV
show that I would just be like this like
it was just an ottoman
there was it was just a motion there was
nothing there that my brain was saying
hey that popcorn tastes good or I'm just
emotionally moving my hand from the back
tub my mouth back to the my mouth by the
time I was done I would look down at the
bag and I have probably eaten about
three servings so 300 calories worth of
popcorn because I wasn't even I wasn't
even paying attention well by that point
that just totally like didn't make any
sense to why we bought skinny popcorn I
could have by that point went into the
cupboard and had one of the kids as
popcorn so you know the regular bags of
popcorn and those ones are 220 calories
I think and I still would have been
under in calories versus doing what I
did with the skinny popcorn so when he
said that today I was like yeah that
makes a lot of sense
that's another step in my journey that's
that's a non scale victory that I see
that I've reached a point where now I
can accept okay you know what this is a
controlled situation there's a bag of
popcorn that already has the serving
together and I just opened that bag and
that's what I did rather than taking
this huge bag of popcorn making the bags
into the sizes that Amy thinks is proper
and then finishing those bags that's a
big victory for me to notice wow I
didn't get angry at him for suggesting
that and all the above and so it was
just it was a really it was a good
feeling to have today that I seen that I
thought gosh you know I've come a long
way I really have because I would have
probably stood in the store and throw a
fit I also got some veggie straws and so
if you're not really for sure what those
are they're all the way in my closet
over here I'm looking at in my mouth I
am NOT me end up to go get them right
now otherwise I'd be moving everything
um they're just like regular like
even know how to describe but they're
like a hollow stick like this probably
the size of my finger and they've got
different veggies blended into it and
they're really good and their garden
veggie straws and they have sea salt on
them
I like those but actually s.res the one
that absolutely loves veggies veggie
chips so I was like you know what I'd
rather get that and put little baggies
together for her so she wants chips she
can have these veggie chips and they're
more healthier than going and eating a
bag of potato chips just say with a lot
more sodium in it
and other things that you know really
she doesn't have to have if she doesn't
like it you know what I'm saying cuz
she'll eat it if it's there but she
would prefer to have the veggie chips
because that's what she just typically
likes and I don't know it could be two
because when she was like I want to say
a turn now about eight months maybe nine
months I started her on the veggie chips
because they would get soft as she was
numbing on them so by the time they were
ready to be swallowed they were pretty
much and so she grew up eating stuff
like that because those actually get
more soft than even like a cheerio so I
gave her a lot of veggie chips like you
know for her little treats and snacks
and things like that if she was in her
bouncer or whatever um so I was really
excited that I found those snacks and I
put those two in the cart so that way
I'd make sure that I you know was
filling that up I also got some granola
bars because that's another thing that I
think would be really good for the kids
if they're wanting a snack they're
healthy but they're filling so they'll
kind of help them feel like they're kind
of getting a good candy treat because
they have a little bit of chocolate chip
in them and peanut butter I wanna see
they're a variety pack of it it's a
sixty variety pack I think it's peanut
butter and then chocolate chip so I mean
and they're only actually they're only a
hundred calories so technically if I
even wanted one for a treat I could
actually
have one and it's only a hundred
calories so it's not that bad
but anyways yeah if that was it and then
I came home and got to work on my mom's
birthday shirt happy birthday mom and
that turned out absolutely adorable so
I'll show you guys that before I close
tonight Nicole go lucky I hope I'm
saying your last name right Glo Glowacki
GL o w eh c ki I hope I'm saying that
right I I'm really bad at butch remains
I really am but I'm trying so her
question was where at online did you
meet him talking about Olli I need a man
so I am gonna do a whole get to know me
get to know Olli our relationship our
marriage video so do you guys I'm trying
my hardest to come up with time to do
this um but I met him online through
ancient time ago because now I I don't
even think they have that they don't I
don't know if they have it or not but it
was through yahoo messenger um excuse me
in the chat rooms I don't know if they
have chat rooms now I know they have a
lot of like the dating sites are dating
apps on the phones so I don't know if it
would work the same but yeah I met him
online in a chat room and the chat room
it was crazy because the chat room was
under wrap and neither one of us really
listened to rap so it was faith that we
both were in the room at the same time
and we don't listen to that type of
music I mean I it's not that I don't
listen to it but it's like and I think
if I was just surfing around trying to
figure out what all of it was I was just
new to it all and it just so happened to
be it see ya
online through the chat rooms Lucy
Monu Monroe Monroe Monroe mu NRO think I
got it absolutely love your videos you
are so bubbling gorgeous I am NOT
overweight American or Muslim but I just
love your beautiful energy and
positivity please keep the videos coming
Oh Lucy thank you so much I truly truly
appreciate that I I honestly is just I I
am shocked sorry my words like
disappeared
um I am so happy and shocked that my
numbers just keep going up and up and
I'm just it makes me so excited like I'm
just like ah you know um I'm so excited
that I have to get prepared here soon
because once we hit a thousand
subscribers me and all they have like a
big surprise like we're gonna do
something but I can't say any more than
that because you were like totally like
because we're supposed to keep it on the
day and oh so is um anyways but thank
you so much I truly appreciate it and
welcome to my channel I hope that you
guys all would get out of this channel
what I was talking about earlier today
about my goals and what my reasoning for
why I have a channel so I truly truly
truly appreciate that comment and I
truly am so happy that you're here with
us and sharing in this positivity
because that's what will make you able
to be about I love it let's see Mellie
Lou another thing you lift my spirits so
much I am cooped up at home due to
recovery from surgery I'm sorry
so I've had only my hubby and
mother-in-law for company when they're
here I am sorry Millie another it just
I'm sorry I
you know being stuck at home and having
to be in a recovery situation I know the
feeling and it it's one of the worst
things you can feel because you feel
like everything's been kind of switched
away from you and so I'm glad that
you're able to you know watch my videos
and feel like you're still a part of the
world and email me whenever you want
sweetheart and I you know I try and
check my emails as soon as I can I get
sometimes get my notification sometimes
my phone falls asleep on me but I always
try and check my emails so if you ever
just need a chitchat or share you know
whatever is going on and this goes for
anybody you guys are more than welcome
to email me and I will get back to you
guys
I know sometimes just having somebody to
talk to means a lot I've been there and
I'm there now so no worries on that and
I am really sorry and I hope that it's a
speedy recovery so you can get back out
there and get your your life back on
ball where you want to be also Millie
Lou I'm going to read the rest of it I
didn't see you had message to write
under that so I'll just put that in with
your other message I've been meaning to
ask you for months
what kind of vehicle do you drive I love
the summer's over the kiddos so what we
have is a Ford Flex before we have my
four I've only ever drove Ford and it's
not for any really particular reason but
it just so happened I've always only
owned a Ford but before the before my
Flex I had a Ford Explorer and our sorry
a for a Ford Expedition year and a half
ago I got into a serious car accident
and I can actually I'll put a little
picture in here
you
yeah that was my accident that was my
first accident that I ever was in the I
actually caused I've been in a few
accidents that were not like that I was
in driving or wasn't our fault but this
was one that it was a drivers worst
nightmare you know it's one of those
where you're driving your whole family's
in the car it's busy cuz it's a Friday
evening everybody's getting off work
we're trying to get over the bridge and
I don't know where my brain was at the
moment and I was looking straight ahead
and so there was my light and my
intersection where I was at and there's
a one-way street going this way and then
there's traffic going this way and then
there's my light well there's a light
right you know the next intersection
over there was another light I don't
know how my eyes and my brain connected
to that light with that intersection in
front of me instead of my light so when
I seen that light turn green I thought
it was my light so instead of stopping I
just kept going well when I kept going I
had a red so I blew through the red
light and I hit someone head-on and the
poor lady was so shooken up I I was a
ball of a mess I had to be taken to the
hospital by ambulance I was freaking out
because I didn't know how my babies were
all of my kids were in the car my
husband was you know trying to take care
of what was going on my car was just
thrashed I didn't I got to the hospital
and I just that was probably a very very
scary but very lonely time for me
actually and I remember just laying in
the hospital bed and I was just bawling
and I dealt with that guilt for probably
about six to seven months I've just
heavy guilt that that was my fault
because of an error that I made I could
have hurt someone so serious and I take
driving
so serious that to even think for two
seconds that because I ran a red light
and it wasn't on purpose I could have
hurt somebody or took somebody's life
and oh my god I was so angry with myself
and I remember the police officer coming
in and telling me you know talking to me
and I asked her you know how are my
babies because she had just left the
scene and was coming straight to the
hospital take care of what they need to
do with me and I remember asking her how
are my babies and how was my husband and
where they ad she was telling me that
you know there's a family member there
picking him up they're gonna be heading
to the house and you know then your
husband said he's gonna be coming to the
hospital with the kids you know just you
need to focus on you and she's like but
I have to cite you and I'm like no I
don't care I was like I know it's my
fault I was like it's my fault
I I can't blame anybody but myself and I
ended up walking away with a $295 ticket
but you know what that $295 ticket I
would rather take in a heartbeat than
losing one of the lives of my kids my
husband or the poor lady that was the
complete innocent driver and that all
but anyways I don't know where I spewed
into that one but yes that is a Ford
Flex and I absolutely love it I really
really do I miss my Ford Expedition
because my Ford Expedition was very um
it was very spacious but I don't miss it
in the fact that I feel like this is
more of a family car so that's that
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candy Morgan great talk today mm this
one's on a relationship seasons hmm
excuse me um great talk today as always
why do you even see a therapist when you
have your talks I feel like a therapist
talking love you Oh Morgan or Candide
sorry thank you so much I appreciate it
you know I it's really it's crazy how
for a very long time I wanted to be a
motivational speaker and I've always
always always wanted to write a book and
share the thoughts that go through my
mind and share the speeches that I tell
myself and I think that that's why I'm
able to speak the way that I do to
people is because I can bring myself to
that level and I can make it so personal
because I'm there I am going through the
same things that all of you guys are so
for me it's just like wow you know I
think that you know with my therapist
you know with me and her there's so much
that I learned from her but it's weird
because what I talked to you guys about
is so different from what I talked to
her about and I think that's because
what I talked to her about is so on my
own lane that you know I that's like I
don't know how to describe what I'm
trying to say but I feel like you know
because I'm talking to her and it's
about my problems my issues my baggage
that mmm when I'm done talking to her I
feel like I've unraveled so much from my
backpack
and I'm able to just leave it in her
office and that opens up my mind to
think about things that I don't clearly
think about when I have a lot of baggage
on my shoulders so I'm and you know and
the funny thing is though and I didn't
know this actually I was not aware of
this but I just found this out not too
long ago that therapists have therapists
so like my therapist has a therapist of
her own all therapists have to have
therapists because you think about all
the stories and the things that they're
told and the things that they have to
deal with on a daily basis could you
imagine going home every night after
hearing these things and not maybe 100%
because even though you're a therapist
when it becomes your own personal bubble
you are inside that bubble so you're not
seeing the clear picture so you need
that outside person to help you sort
those feelings to manage everything
that's around you that you've heard or
dealing with in your own in your own
life and so for me I love to do
motivational speaking I love to talk
about topics that I see that are so
important in so many ways and even
though I go to a therapist my therapy is
for my problems and I love to share with
you guys things that I'm able to see
clearly after I get some of my problems
out of my way because I don't want to be
tripping on rocks but yeah I I just I
love that again I am able to share my
feelings with you guys and that it meets
you guys where you guys are at in life
and that what I'm doing is clearly
exactly what I need to be doing and I
enjoy that I enjoy being able to share
life experiences and talk about things
that some
times are hard to talk about you know
there are people that just don't have it
to talk about and with me sometimes
there are conversations that are a
little harder to talk about but at the
same time they're conversations that I
know that are very very important to
talk about and so that's why I talk
about the things that I do and I'm just
hoping that it always meets you guys
where you're at and that you can take
what I say and put it into your own
lives because it's exactly what I do and
the things that I learned from my
therapist only helped me grow stronger
in the other thoughts that I have so so
the last one I'm going to read for
tonight it's a long name let's see if I
can get it
Seattle Sapphire eats lchf and keto not
sure what the LCH f stands for I do you
know what keto stands for but welcome
and hello she says oh my god I just
found your channel and I am binge
watching your videos I am so thankful
that you're here I hope I did not
totally butcher out what your name is if
you can maybe if you want to message me
maybe I'm not sure what lchf stands for
so if you wanted to tell me that would
be awesome
if you want to just even go back to our
messages from when you message the binge
watching videos one I would love to know
what that me what that stands for
because like I said I know what keto is
maybe that's a new one I don't know but
welcome and like I've said many times
over welcome to everybody I am so happy
to have so many beautiful new faces and
just learning a little bit from each and
every one of you guys is absolutely
amazing you guys have made my day my
week my month my year I just yeah
I'm so excited to see this all happening
and in fact I have goosebumps you guys I
have goosebumps goosebumps you guys mean
so much to me um it's like just gaining
new family that's what I feel like I
seriously have goosebumps you guys are
that amazing to me you guys are bringing
goosebumps to my body because I embrace
you guys so much you're so awesome and
every one of you have changed my life so
many ways and directions and my
daughter's gonna want to come in the
room and I'm not letting her in right
now I'm not gonna run naked down the
road or do any skipping with no shirt on
I was looking your guys are wrong like
whoa I was log looking up online today
was it today yeah I think it was today
what are things that people do to
celebrate their channel growing one lady
like totally stripped her clothes off
like but butt-naked and ran down the
street and I'm like oh no yeah I am
excited to see my channel growing but I
am NOT trying to do any of that um but I
thought that was so funny I was just
like Oh someone is really committed to
her channel um
I am very committed you guys but there's
just no show for that no no show for
that my daughter is fighting with her
brother this is amazing gotta love
siblings um anyways but their fathers
out there so he better be the referee
mommy's off duty at the moment just for
a couple more minutes and then it's
mom's gotta go give showers and baths
because it is 8:45 and we're gonna be
past bedtime uh anyway so I am going to
close you guys so I can get these kiddos
ready for bed because this moment is
ready for her binge watching video time
I have my nights where are my every
night I got my channels that I have down
my list and I watch them so I'm going to
close so that I can get going on my
night and get my kids to bed but I hope
you guys enjoyed my vlog today
and enjoy going with me and huffy puffy
in a Costco and my talk tonight was a
good one for you guys but I just I I
hope you guys have a wonderful wonderful
evening and thank you again for all of
the new subscribers and all of my
amazing followers that have been here
from the day one you guys are all
amazing you have brought so much support
and encouragement to me you guys are all
the reason that I continue to stay on
this journey and continue to push
forward because I have such an amazing
support system that I could not imagine
having it any other way and so you guys
all have made such an impact in my life
you have no idea how much you guys have
helped me out so I just want to say
thank you for that
I will check in with you guys tomorrow
bright and shiny in the morning tomorrow
is Wednesday I don't know what I have
planned for tomorrow but I will
definitely check in with you guys and I
will fill you in with what's going on
but anyways take care of you guys sweet
dreams bye bye
